shame on me..

heven't been here for such a long time.. and there's been so much goin' on lately..

to scream out just a few things happening in my life lately:

been to a prom yesterday, first prom of the season. went there with indy, who didn't actually enjoy it.. fav guy told me he even thinks indy hates him.. ha ha ha..

got a half a year together with indy on the 1st of november.. a bit scary.. didn't see it coming..

home is getting more and more crazy..

school is getting more and more scary..

i missed haloween this year..

we had a great weekend with rina over, nice alcoholic night with romantic movies and a bottle of martini.. aaaaah..

yup, that's about it..

oh and i hate leaving for prague every sunday/monday.. who would've thought, huh?

another monday crisis..

on the other hand, aren't all mondays critical? i'm starting to think so..

po lehce nasraném a vzápětí vylepšeném pátku nastala skvělá, ale následně zpruzená sobota, pak rychlá neděle a už je zase zkurvené pondělí.. chjo..

ok, když to vemu tedy trochu zdlouhavě.. indy měl přijet v pátek do prahy, asi v poledne z něj vypadlo, že se mu nikam nece, tak jsem tedy jela já do plzně lehce naštvaná.. každopádně jsme si užili i pátek i sobotu. pátek - děti noci - nic moc, good idea, ale to je tak asi všechno. sobota - leháro a pak procházka ve žlutém listí, aaaachjo.. romantika jako blázen prostě.. ale doma nasraná matka (nejspíš kvůli tomu, že jsem dorazila domů až v osm večer) a tak lehce zkažený večer. neděle - ráno na srub, původní plánovaný návrat: 14.00. skutečný návrat: 17.30. neumím tedy nic, jelikož jsem šla ještě večer s klukama do anděla na atonement. asi se budu muset učit dnes..by mě zajímalo kdy..

monday monday monday..

monday crisis..

well, it was worse yesterday.. a lot worse.. today is a lot better.. but it needs stg to make it great.. a bottle of wine with rina? that will definitely do..

vacation report.. konečně..

um, já vim, že jsem slíbila report z dovolené už před týdnem.. no time, no..

taaakže..

vyrazili jsme v neděli odpoledne.. já jsem se chtěla vyhnout obědu u babičky, ale indy byl na akci v roztokách u konopiště, tákže do prahy dorazila až přesně na oběd.. chjo.. mno nic.. pak jsme vyrazili směr mělník, abychom hned zakufrovali a octli se v obci hlavenec, kde jsme úplně náhodou objevili pomník karlu VI. od matyáše bernarda brauna, který měl původně stát na karlově náměstí v praze.. následoval mělník a roudnice nad labem, kde mě indy zkušeně provedl. po roudnici následovala archeologická exkurze do obce vetlá na vrch sovice, kde v červenci vojta kopal.. zajímavé.. spali jsme u chmelového pole v autě..

pondělí pršelo jako o závod, tedy jsme navštívili terezín, aby ta depka jakože stála za to.. a taky, že jsme oba byli zdeptaný.. aby ne.. odpoledne se počasí trochu umoudřilo, jeli jsme se projít do litoměřic.. po litoměřicích na hrad kamýk, který byl založen janem lucenburským a měli ho ve vlastnictví skoro všechny významné české šlechtické rody.. svačina na hradbách.. následovalo ústí nad labem, které se nám ani jednomu nelíbilo.. nicméně jsme přespali v hotelu a ráno jsme rádi vypadli..

úterý tedy střekov, hrad v majetku lobkoviců u ústí nad labem.. byli jsme tam skoro sami, neskutečně foukalo, ale pokecali jsme se správcem hradu.. následně jsme jenom projeli velkým březnem (státní zámek) a zubrnicí (skanzen) a dorazili jsme okolo poledne do děčína, kde jsme se pořádně najedli a prošli od růžové zahrady až po židovskou synagogu.. spíme v kempu v jetřichovicích (hranice lužických hor, českého středohoří a českého švýcarska) vedle trojice němců s jódlujícím radiem.. při sbírání dříví na oheň jsme v lese potkali dva jeleny.. wow..

středa - ráno zima jak prase, razíme se zahřát při výlezu na skalní hrady. opravdu jsme se zahřály, výstupy byli dosti náročné, maminkám by se to nelíbilo a otcové by se tam nevešli.. vylezli jsme tedy na skalní hrady falkenštejn a šaunštejn, odkud byl moc pěkný výhled do kraje.. pak už jsme se vydali směrem západním přes teplice (hrad krupka) do oseka a na hrad rýzmburk u oseka, který nás naprosto uchvátil a kde jsme u mizerného ohně, který nechtěl hořet, přespali ve stanu..

ve čtvrtek ráno nás probudilo slunce, které se ukázalo poprvé za celý týden a povzbudilo nás natolik, že jsme se s indym oba shodli, že dnešní noc chceme už strávit v teple domova.. vydali jsme se tedy na západ na litvínov se zastávkami v chomutově, na hradě hasištejn,v kadani, klášterci nad ohří a na andělské hoře u karlových varů.. poté následovala dlouhá cesta do železné rudy, kterou ale indy zvládl na jedničku.. spíme tedy na rudě v teple a suchu..

pátek až neděle jsme opravdu jenom odpočívali a užívali si naprostého klidu. podnikli jsme výlet do srní, podívali se na srub a prošli se po okolí..

v neděli odpoledne nám nezbylo než se vrátit do plzně.. ale odjížděli jsme velmi neradi. po cestě jsme ještě zvládli hrad roupov u přeštic, kde je zachovalý komín středověké černé kuchyně, která ale nešla a nešla vyfotit..

návrat do plzně probíhal hladce.. až na tu prázdnou postel, která mě čekala doma a která byla naprosto nezvyklá po týdnu s indym.. chjo.. se nedá nic dělat..

back again

..and not liking it one bit..

i'd like another week with indy alone.. a whole lifetime.. this week was just too short..

these are just the few first after homecoming phrases.. more of our big trip during the rest of the week..

*sigh*

pre-vacation packing..

i can't believe it's here.. my vacation.. finally..

today yo prague with family and tmrw with indy to melnik and litomerice and on.. yes!

wish us good weather..

music: Interpol - Evil

mid-week crisis..

yup, it's here alright.. i can't decide if it's yesterday's bottle of wine or just a bad mood.. but it is here..

yesterday was full of mixed feelings:
- slept well but then couldn't find the fucking center of charles university licenses
- had a good lunch but then spent an hour and half at the fucking center until i got my isic
- had a great dinner with rina but then had a fight with indy on the phone over nothing

yeah, great day..

and today, i woke up with a terrific attitude.. one of those all-of-you-go-to-hell moods.. but i'm going home in a few hours.. can't make up my mind about when i'll go to prague in the rest of the week.. we'll see..

my hometown..

i really do love living in pilsen.. it's a great city..

well, it might be 'cause i met so many people in the past two days.. refreshing after two anonymous months in prague.. i guess i need that time off to appreciate all my friends at home..

i also appreciated doing stg for myself on saturday - meaning beach volley.. had a great time.. this is what i should've been doing the whole summer.. not working in an office in prague.. too late to do stg about it now, maybe i'll know better next year.. or maybe not 'cause i'm that kind of person..

music: T-Rex - I Love To Boogie (oh yeah, and i really do love to boogie..)

a thursday edition..

goin' home today.. can't wait to get there..

i have to pick up passport photos ('cause i lost the brand new ones i had made a week ago.. crap..) 'cause i need to get some licences done.. and then i'm off to pilsen! yay!

*homesick*

music: none? i have to get stg done about that asap..

today's the day..

when i get totally upset with myself for not having any summer.. i really am an idiot - working all summer..

i can't wait to get out of this office.. two months is just enough.. i'd like to stay and help the guys here, but i can't sit here all day - that's just too much for me.. and i'm not as productive as i could be..

anyways, had a nice weekend.. short, but full of action..

indy is coming tmrw for a few days.. i miss him already..

earrings in progress - i already made 10 pairs.. an i got some new beads today.. yipee..

music: Coldplay - Lost!

tuesday tuesday tuesday

back to work this week.. uff.. i'm not really liking it that much.. but it's only for three weeks in a row.. and then we're off on vacation.. and then school.. i'm thrilled..

anyways, it looks like we've started an etsy shop with rina.. well, it's not started yet.. but it will be on oct. 1st.. i'm a bit more thrilled about that than school..

indy is coming to prague today.. i miss him so much..

today is a weird day, i have to keep saying my summer motto over and over again.. think positive..

music: Ruckus - Same In Any Language

a really short one..

happy..

caught a cold but happy..

happy..

happy..

happy..

did everybody get it?:)

music: Xiu Xiu - I Luv the Valley, OH!

exactly my feelings this morning..

action at tad's house.. i didn't want to go, but then i got a phone call and three guys were yelling into my ear that i had to come.. sweet.. and i couldn't exactly say no, could i? anyways, the plan was that we were going back to pilsen a little over midnight.. result? went to bed at four in the morning. well, tad's bed.. with indy, not tad..

tad had to go to work this morning so we all agreed to get up before ten.. i was up at 7.30 and i met tad in the hallway.. the guy slept like 20 mins.. wow.. either way, i think he's my fave of indy's friends.. i met a bunch of other guys last night.. but they were all too alcoholic.. which might've also been the reason why i beat them all in basketball.. i got lucky:P..

well, so after stg similar to the picture above, i'm sitting here and drinking my cup of coffee and hoping that all actions with indy are going to be this fun..

music: Antonio Vivaldi - The Four Seasons, Summer - Presto

rainy day post..

it's raining again..

and my friend's wedding is in the afternoon.. i hope it gets better until then.. they're having an outdoors garden party thing after the ceremony.. i'll wish them luck..

anyways, i've been home for two days now.. i didn't get to do anything 'cause i'm always with indy.. the time goes by so fast when we're together it's crazy..

today's big goal is to tidy up a bit for next weekend - rina's going to come!! i can't wait to see her.. indy's a bit nervous, 'cause he knows her opinion on him is vital.. heh.. we'll see..

festival on the street starting monday, lotsa jazz this year.. will be fantastic..

music: Coldplay - Violet Hill (is an awesome song.. very very cathy, can't get it out of my head)

home sweet home again..

i just got home a few moments ago.. las week was very full of everything:)

it started off with grandpa's 70th birthday party on tuesday. we did that in pilsen, ate a lot, drank even more and then didn't get any sleep. the usual:).. very unusual was drinking johnny walker a year younger than i am.. funny.. and it really is the best..

payed for the dorm on wednesday morning. now i really do have to sign up at the charles university.. imagine that - me actually doing two schools. me actually looking forward to the beginning of the school year.. :) and we took a walk through the cemetery at olsany with indy in the afternoon..

thursday claire came back from berlin and slept at my place in prague.. haven't seen her for ages so we had a lot to talk about..

and friday.. i had to go to grandma and grandpa's cottage to help them with another birthday party.. and was so glad to be sitting on the bus back to prague.. very very geriatric.. but i guess we'll all be the same in 50 years..

anyways, i got back to prague at about nine only to receive a call from my collegue peter who invited me for an opening of a new bar of his friends. i got there after midnight, drank free champagne, then a lot of vodka and got home at four. heh.. getting up in the morning wasn't that funny though..

mental note: don't ever mix champagne with anything again.. not good..

:)

urgh..

ok, dinner with mr. asshole..

well, it was exactly how i imagined it - he was telling me so much about himself and i didn't give a shit.. he wanted to know lotsa stuff about me, but i didn't have anything to say to him..

and if i did say stg, he quoted me a few moments later.. wtf?!

but worst of all, some things i thought were long forgotten were back.. all this stuff i managed to get out of my head were back.. and my attitude towards the guy didn't change a bit.. i even wonder if all those things he told me were true.. but then again - why am i thinking about this? i really don't give a shit..

the rest of the evening was way better - i picked up my grandparents in this fish restaurant where grandpa was celebrating part I. of his 70th b-day parties.. well, we got home just before midnight and it was a great laugh.. there were mostly doctors (sports doctors) at the party and they were telling stories from long ago.. i laughed so hard i cried.. brilliant..

well, off to work.. though all i want to do today is go home and sleep.. (i mean, go home home - pilsen.. gosh, i'm so home sick..)

let's all hope today isn't gonna be as hot as the previous days..

music: Electric Light Orchestra - Evil Woman

alone again..

indy left this morning.. (morning farewells are even worse than the evening ones..) and left me here all alone again..

not to mention that i'm meeting mr. asshole today for dinner. it's funny, i haven't seen the guy for some six years and i don't care one bit.. even though he is my biological father.. the worst thing about the dinner is that he's going to want to tell me so many things about himself and his family and work and everything and i don't give a shit.. aren't i a good daughter, huh?

i'm feeling evil today..we'll see how it goes..

music: Garbage - I'm Only Happy When It Rains

so true..

how life is..

today's thoughts..

it's summer in prague.. for a few days at least.. i'm surprised that the climate on the office isn't as bad as i thought it would be.

i can't believe i'm saying this but i can't wait for the guzs to come back andrea is great, but it's better to have the guys here..i'm even starting to miss them:)..

anyways, this week is going to be at least a bit busy - indy's coming tmrw afternoon.. can't wait for that.. and on thursday i have a scheduled dinner with my biological father.. mr.asshole.. can't wait for that either.. *ironic*

k, back to work..

think happy thoughts..

music: Alabama 3 - Woke Up This Morning

a working girl's blues

it's frustrating.. friday at work..

the longing for my bed and my bath and my house and actually for my city..

prague is nice, but it's just not my home.. i thought it was, but it just doesn't fit completely..

though that might be because of the absence of the few loved ones i have in my life.. the girls are here when i'm not and now that i am here, they're not.. pweh.. simple, huh?

that will change in a few months..

and then i'll be longing for my indy who won't be here..

life hurts..

music: KT Tunstall - Universe & U

travel news..

by matyáš bernard braun

mno, tak jsem zase zpátky z dovolené.. bylo to krátké, nicméně výživné. čas jsme využily maximálně. nic pro našeho otce. moc informací a vůbec moc akce.. :)

viděly jsme toho mnoho - zámek v opočně, rodiště f.l.věka v dobrušce, poděbrady, dvůr králové a celou zoo, jaroměř, josefov, kuks, braunův betlém a k tomu i trochu omylem ratibořice a celé babiččino údolí..

mam tunu fotek zvířat (dodám sérii "crazy stripes" a "elephant love"), i když pořád ještě neumim pracovat s dlouhým objektivem tak, jak bych chtěla. ale u živých cílů se nemůže nic moc čekat, jelikož se tedy hýbou až moc.. aspoň nová zkušenost..

dále jsme se vůbec nedivily, že pruští vojáci minuli josefov, který byl tedy stavěn zbytečně. my jsme ho minuly hned dvakrát. a tím pádem jsme skončily v ratibořicích a prohlédly jsme si výborně vybavený zámek a staré bělidlo a dohadovaly jsme se, jak se vlastně jmenovala všechna panklovic děcka (a kolik jich vlastně bylo:).. viktorčin splav není vůbec zajímavý, ale za to vlastně může spíše čas.

mě osobně nejvíce zaujaly braunovy sochy, které vypadají na fotkách minimálně stejně impozantně jako ve skutečnosti..

toť zpráva z výletu..

výlet se zdařil:)..

music: Phantom Planet - California

another week..

another week in prague.. working again.. phew..

i mean, it's not that bad. it's not bad at all. it's just that i'm full of thoughts right now.

i got accepted for british and american studies. yay.. but i don't wanna go there anymore.. i'd rather stay at work as long as possible, it has at least some potencial..

anyways, indy spent the night in prague today.. miss him already.. we're trying to figure out a trip for sometime in september.. it looks like we could go to budapest and then on to montenegro an maybe make a stop in venice on our way back..

on verra..

hm..

tak jsem od dnešního dne studentkou české zemědělské univerzity..

jupí..

nebo spíš teda z toho opět mám mixed feelings.. nic neni jenom dobré proslední dobou.. a to to vypadalo tak nadějně.. se vším.. nalajnovaná budoucnost..všecko super..

ale když jsem tam tak seděla a koukala jsem kolem sebe, nezaujal mě tam jediný člověk.. chjo.. nemluvě o tom, že se mi udělalo skoro nevolno, když jsem si zapisovala předměty do indexu.. mhm..to bude ještě sranda..

ha ha ha..

ehm..

je zajímavé, že do teď jsem byla přesvědčená, že tam chci.. a třeba tam chci pořád, ale právě teď se mi tam nechce ani trochu..

the original laptop..

*nice*

v praze je blaze..

ale jenom na první pohled.. možná ještě i na druhý..

but that's about it..

práce je celkem v klidu, už jsme dali dohromady první aktuality na web.. ještě dneska mě čeká řešení databáze kongresů.. uf.. ale jsou i chvíle nudy..

ráno jsem si řikala, že je dobře, že babička odjíždí, teď už mi to tak supr nepřijde. stále doufám, že přijede vojta a zítra dorazí kari. jupí..

think positive is my motto for this summer (and maybe beyond)..

back to work..

today was a weird day.. since yesterday..

work isn't bad, it's just that i don't know if it's ok, to this and that and i don't like asking questions all the time. but the guys are great, i gotta say that..

i think i'll try stg bigger tmrw.. like actually putting a few things on our web.. manage the congress database or stg like that..

but today i'm exhausted.. it was such a tiring day..

i wanna go home.. as in my pilsen home..

*sigh*

*double sigh*

music: none

zpráva z výletu

indy vymyslel, že pojedeme na výlet.. někam..

tak jsme tedy jeli..

tedy, až po vydatné hádce, ke které došlo kvůli nečekanému komunikačnímu šumu..

nicméně jsme vyrazili z plzně někdy okolo šesté hodiny večerní směrem severovýchodním, tedy směrem na libštejn:).. po cestě jsme stavěli na focení a kochání se (tedy hlavně to kochání) naši krajinou.. po několika drobných škobrtech v navigaci jsme se ocitli v obci robčice, kde jsme nechali auto a vydali se vstříc svému osudu..

došli jsme až k řece berounce, zhruba na místo, kde jsme (nebo alespoň já) čekali most. první zrada - most tu jaksi nebyl, byl tu však moc pěkný jez, který jsme se (hlavně já) rozhodli přebrodit. pak přelézt jeden plot a cesta na hrad už byla hračka..

na tábořišti pod hradem už někdo byl, tak jsme vyrazili přímo nahoru na hrad zjistit, jestli by se dalo přespat tam. a dalo.. tak se tedy šlo na dříví. zhruba od této chvíli můžu indymu s klidem říkat zjizvená hruď:).. (no, ono to fakt nevypadalo moc dobře, má tam tak 7cm škrábanec. nasty..) ale nakonec jsme přece jenom nějaké to dříví ukořistili a odtahli na hrad. pak už následovala klasika: opékání špekáčků, přikládání do ohně, kecání a posléze i pozorování hvězd.. ovšem přesně ve chvíli, kdy jsme se rozhodli, že už půjdeme spát, přišli naši "sousedé" z podhradí na pokec. grr.. odešli až ve čtvrt na čtyři. kdyby se mi už fakt nechtělo děsivě spát, možná bych si i ráda pokecala.. no nic..

ráno jsme to sbalili, nafotili ale úplně všechno a pádili jsme vstříc dalšímu přebrození jezu.. cesta zpět proběhla s několika zastávkami na kochání a focení hladce..

výlet se zdařil..

:)

teď už se těším na fotky..

music: T-Rex - Cosmic Dancer

sweet home pilsen

aaah.. i never thought it would feel so good to be at home after a week of work in prague..

i didn't even mind missing one crowded bus from prague.. i just smiled and waited another 20mins (what is 20mins when you can spend the whole weekend at home?) for the next bus (which happened to be half-full and a/c - yipee) for pilsen..

and now i§m off to bed.. my bed..

ok, i'm here

yeah, i'm gonna be so loaded and so lonely at the same time.. pretty fuckin' stupid, huh?

indy came to visit yesterday.. i miss him so much already.. and it's going to be even worse..

at least grandpa is coming to prague today evening so i won't have to be in the apartement alone again..

well, work is ok, i still don't really get what's really going on here, but wtf.. there's always time for that.. next week is going to eb better.. but the guys are ok and helpful, even if i ask stupid questions all the time..

well well well

ok, here it is.. i'm going to prague in a few hours to stay there at least until the end of the week.. mixed feelings.. i'm looking forward to meeting new people and trying stg new. on the other hand, i miss my loved one already..

everything's gonna be just fine..

right?

hope so..

music: Muse - Hysteria

*happy*

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documentační photo

z láďovo oslavy narozenin.. myslím, že to je docela povedená fotka.. celej náš otec:)

where's the party at?

it was chez nous yesterday.. we were celebrating dad's 55th birthday.. i was a bit afraid of how it's gonna go.. but it was brilliant.. i had the biggest laugh in the past few months..

the food was great..
the people were great..
the subjects talked about were great..
the laugh was wonderful..

what would one want more? i think dad had a good time too..

music: Joe Cocker - Come Together

*tired*

i went to prague today.. to settle things for my summer job.. actually just met a few very nice people who made me feel needed and went back home..

dunno why, but this time in prague, i felt so lonely.. i hope it gets better next week.. i don't want to spend the next two to three months weeping each night infront of the tv.. no, not me..

i need to send my emo self somewhere far far away like rina did.. good point..

btw, saw indiana jones with my personal indiana jones yesterday.. not bad, but not stunning either..
now if y'all excuse me, i have some reading to do.. or maybe sleeping, 'cause i'm very very exhausted today..

music: Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood

mixed feelings

today was a day of mixed feelings.. it was so full of it it went a bit ovet the top sometimes..

spent all day doing "nothing" with a loved one.. ehm..

but the late afternoon ruined an otherwise perfectly spent day.. dad told little sis's that grandma dies.. shock, tears and lots of screaming.. oh well, it had to come someday..

oh well.. my days just can't be only perfect..

music: Keane - Bedshaped

matters of life and death

um, tuhle fotku jsem našla dneska, když jsem projížděla fotky v počítači.. jednou za čas to dělam, abych je jakože probrala.. nejhorší na tom je, že jsem zas nic nevymazala.. všechno necham při starym, jenom je všechny egoisticky projedu a pokocham se, jak jsem vypadala před tolika a tolika měsíci..

nicméně tahle fotka vystihuje dnešní prapodivnou náladu, která u nás doma všeobecně panovala.. blbej tlak.. všichni jsme se na tom shodli.. tento způsob léta se mi tedy opravdu zdá poněkud nešťastný.. snad to bude zase lepší a tlak bláznil jenom kvůli tomu, aby už bylo jenom krásně a hlavně klid..

a jelikož jsme dneska byli všichni tak trochu jako přetažený válečekem na nudle, celý večer jsme řešili životně důležitý problém: odstín nátěru srubu.. seděli jsme s nohami nahoře na verandě, koukali na pruhovaný kus klády, který nám sloužil jako vzorník a moudře pokyvovali hlavami.. bude to olše? med/dub už jsme zavrhli hned po tom, co jsme se jednohlasně shodli, že vypadá spíše špinavě.. nejvíce by se nám líbil teak, ale to by bylo moc tmavé.. tak z toho asi bude červená pinie.. to jsou problémy, to jsou problémy..

*laughing out loud*

vive le week-end!!

baaack..

and i can't actually say that i'm glad i'm back home.. no home sweet home type of thing..

*sigh*

it's funny how much you learn about your loved one during just a few days spent together non-stop.. wonderful..

so far i found out that i am dating an extraordinary person and i intend to date that person for a loooong time.. or at least as long as it can go..

(sry indy, had to say that..)

aah, anyways, the weather was nice, the nature was green and there wasn't enough time to see all that nature.. too bad.. :))

well, i'm so full of emotions i think it's best i stop..

sweet dreams..

to whoever...

hear hear..

going to the mountains for a few days.. looking forward to a few days of calm.. need them desperately..

be back friday..

dancin' machine/ cenzura

i kinda got into a dancing mood.. if there was an oldies disco club, i'd be there every day.. but not just those popular beatles, but all the others - chuck berry, curtis mayfield, the shirelles, solomon burke, the who, al green, aretha franklin, bobby darin..

and all my other faves.. oh i'd love that..

soul and blues and good old r'n'b..

whoo hoo..

music: The Shirelles - Mama Said

a pro ty, co si myslí, že sem moc otevřená na netu - stejně to nikdo nečte, krom kari, tak si tu můžu psát, co chci.. kdybych si myslela cokoliv necudného a měla potřebu to sem napsat, tak s tim stejně ty nic neuděláš, milý indy.. :P

poper se s tim..

mam tě moc ráda..

ehm..

že já se na ten fotbal koukam..

to be or not to be?

ha! our whole family was here yesterday,including my older brother so i went to see his myspace to be surprised by the music he's making nowadays..

go bro'! it's great.. and i don't even like techno..:)

http://www.myspace.com/nippspace

a právě teď poslouchám na radiožurnálu prof. martina hilského.. mluví úžasně.. je škoda, že takových osobností máme v českých zemích málo.. obdivuhodný člověk.. doufám, že se s ním setkám.. tedy, pokud mě na tu anglistiku opravdu vemou a pokud se tam opravdu zapíšu..

mluví za vše -
redaktor: co děláte, když si nevíte rady?
hilský: tak nejdříve se poradím s různými komentáři a pak se poradím se shakespearem..

a to mě přivádí k tomu, co jsem viděla ve středu na na přijímačkách.. lépe řečeno, viděla jsem vedoucího ústavu anglistiky a amerikanistiky, prof. martina procházku, jak neskutečně seřvává jednu pani, která přišla svoji dceru zapsat na přijímačky (jelikož holka byla jinde na přijímačkách a paní tvrdila, že tam holka byla den předtim a nedoklepala se tam, což procházku totálně popudilo, pani seřval a ta se rozbrečela.. a do toho sem tam já stála nad papírem s prezencí a on na mě úplně sladkým hlasem: "slečno, tady se mi pěkně podepišteeee..." wow..) taky zajímavý pán.. :)

music: Nipp - Sad Like Windows

*blank*

grandma died..

two hours ago..

i can't say it was just like that, she was sick.. but still, it's weird.. i dunno what to feel.. she wasn't my grandmother and we never had a so-called relationship and i knew she was about to die and now it happened and i don't know how to act or feel or anything..

weird, that's the word..

mcsigh..

gosh, i am so blank these last couple of days..

i hope that gets better.. i hope it's only a phase i'm going through after all that exam stress and now that it's all over and done i'll be ok once more.

i want to start getting up before eight o'clock in the morning. or at least before nine.. now that would be great.. otherwise i feel that i've wasted so much time while sleeping..

well, i'll try and be more active..

.. starting next week..

maybe:)

music: Umbrellas - Ships

yay! ?

ok, i got through round two.. and got 74 points.. which isn't much, but is enough for acceptance for english and american studies..

i rule!

and, um, why am i not happy?

is everything lost?

ok, i found this photo while going through old photos. well, old.. some four years back.. which is at my age a long time ago:)..

anyway, it was taken in italy.. somewhere around napoli.. and it's one of those pictures that i remember every detail about.

we were on our way back to the, um, hotel from vesuv which we didn't get to climb on because of snow. we took a break somewhere and some people went down on the beach to take a swim. i didn't want a swim, i think i was chatting with elis and we were watching the sunset. and because i was taking photos of everything on that trip, i took a pic of the setting sun too..

ok, no big deal, huh? well, we came back, and i showed my parents the photos, put them on a cd and that was about it..

and i foun it now, after four years and i actually think it's one of the best photos i have ever taken. i mean, anyone can opose that thought.. i just kind of liked it..

and all this brings me to another thought - we have so many photos on cd's and dvd's and hard disks and flash disks and whatever and we never look at them. i haven't gone through photos from italy for four years. and i have so many photos from slovakia which i haven't seen at all..

they're all lost somewhere in dad's computer or on all those disks and i might never see them again..

something has to be done..

as of now i pronounce next week the week of searching for long lost photos..

some of them might even be good..

music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue

think happy thoughts

um, i don't know if this thought i'm about to express fits here or belongs here, but as it's a part of me, it should be here..

you see, today i realized that i haven't been this happy in such a long time. well, a few years at least..

but now i am incandescently happy and it's wonderful..

ha haa!

love is so cool..

:)

music: Placebo - Every You, Every Me

whoo hoo

heh, i think i've just proved myself that i'm not that stupid as i thought.. on the other hand, it might've been pure luck.. but who cares? i got to round two in the english studies entrance exams..

wow..

we'll see what next i guess..

music: The Cardigans - My Favourite Game

suzi's very late morning thoughts..

i still didn't manage to wake up fully.. dunno why.. maybe i want to stay in my dreams..

though this night i didn't have to dream..

it was as good as any of my dreams:)..

and that's only the beginning..

*mwuahaha*

music: Ivy - Edge of the Ocean

this morning's thought..

i woke up this morning and this was the first thing that came up on my mind..

Fabienne: Whose motorcycle is this?
Butch: It's a chopper, baby.
Fabienne: Whose chopper is this?
Butch: It's Zed's.
Fabienne: Who's Zed?
Butch: Zed's dead, baby. Zed's dead.

um..?

music: The Who: Baba O'Riley

blablabla catching up..

ok.. i'm here alright..

i figured that i can live without the internet for almost two weeks.. it's ok, one just has to forget about those incoming words of the dat and stuff.. after these two weeks, i checked my vitals and i had 35 incoming e-mails.. only four of them were somehow more interesting, so i didn't actually miss anything.. cool.. or not?

well, i sat for the entrance exam for english and american studies.. ehm.. i felt like a complete idiot.. especially writing an essay about politics in literature and blablabla something.. wonderful.. i actually had to laugh out loud when i opened it..

anyways, i'm baby-sitting little sis today, 'cause she's ill and we're going to the doctor's in a moment..

phew..

um..i'll be back

in two shakes of a lamb's tail...

we have a problem with our internet at home, but it will be fixed in a couple of days, hopefully..

i just can't help myself and have to say this: I am soooooo made of awesome!! (i passed my finals unexpectedly and am so proud of myslef)...

see ya soon..

freaking out already..

um, only 23 more hours until i start with czech literature..

in 24 hours i'll be starting biology, my greatest nightmare..

in 25 hours english..

in 26 hours french..

*gulp*

*exhausted*

please, oh please.. can we just get over this?

i really need some time off..

i can't write, i can't read, i can't see, i can't eat, i can't do anything.. screw all this!

really, i'm not nervous, i'm just totally exhausted..

*sigh*



*sigh*

it's high time i get stg done, right?

my head is almost as big as a balloon.. i've been working on my biology questions since morning and by now i have the feeling that i don't know anything at all.. the good news is that i only need to finish up some six easy questions (and three not very easy questions, but i'm trying to not think about them right now).. at this moment i am dead positive that i'll pick some very ugly ones and struggle to get a four.. which i would probably be even happy for in the end..

another great thought crosses my mind - i didn't even start going through czech grammar.. oh great, oh great.. this is not a positive thought. one might say it's even quite negative..

but i will be positive - i'll do just fine..

yup, and now i'll have to try actually believing that thought..

music: David Gray - This Year's Love

messed up..

as i look around i see only heaps and heaps of all kinds of stuff that altogether make up this one big horrible mess. i wonder if i'll ever manage to clean it all up at once. probably not. i'm so ashamed, but i just don't have the strength..

maybe next week..

or the one after that..

i'm evil..

paris, je t'aime, i really do

saw paris, je t'aime yesterday..

i can't actually say it's great or wonderful or awesome.. it's all this and more..

it's a project in which 22 directors co-operated in (can't have been easy).. each of them has about six minutes to express their thoughts on the two main themes - paris and love..

quite extraordinary.. i personally loved not one but seven of these mini-movies (but that doesn't make the rest bad.. well, one was weird..)
- Montmartre by Bruno Podalydés
- Tuileries by Joel and Ethan Coen with fantastic Steve Buscemi
- Bastille by isabel Coixet (i read about this one and was very expectant - and it really was a real short film, with all a short film needs and has..)
- Parc Monceau by Alfonso Cuarón with Nick Nolte and shot as a single shot
- Pigalle by Richard LaGravenese with stunning Fanny Ardant and Bob Hoskins
- Pere-Lachaise by Wes Craven with my fave Rufus Sewell (and Oscar Wilde *thumbs up*)
- 14e by Alexander Payne (who played Oscar Wilde before) told by an american tourist with her rough french (with a very heavy US accent:) brilliant

overall: brilliant for us, paris-lovers

urgh, just get it done, will ya?

ok, apart from the rain, today is a pretty good day..

i'm starting to get at least a bit nervous which is probably a good sign and we managed to get a paper where the biology questions are all paired up.. stg positive at last..

i just hate everybody asking about my study plan. i have one, that's true, but i don't really follow it.. *headdesk* it's so exhausting.. i want to get it done and finally let this huge rock fall from my shoulders..

too much pressure.. i don't like that.. it makes me lazier.. a paradox

aurevoir ou adieu?

i'm not nervous, yet.. it almost makes me nervous.. i'm supposed to be freaking out by now.. the finals in less than a week and i'm still pretty much ok and sensible. i keep hearing about my fellow classmates throwing up with nervosity - what?! i mean, it's not that big a deal..

or is it?

first big exam of our student life. one by one we go inside the room to prove a band of teachers that we really learned something during the past eight years.. it's bullshit.. i don't remember a thing from the past eight years in school, at least nothing relevant.. so i guess we'll see.. and improvise..

well hello, here i come..

um, i dunno how to express my thoughts today..

does everything have to have a point? everybody's asking for reasons.. for everything nowadays..

i don't like that. i like doing things pointlessly. ya know, stuff like blowin' bubbles while walking through the crowded city and not b/c i want to attract attention. just because..

just because life is great and it sucks at the same time and i love it and hate it at once and it hurts so much i could cry but then heals up all my troubles without requiring my action..

and this doesn't make any sense at all.. well, c'est la vie