*blank*

grandma died..

two hours ago..

i can't say it was just like that, she was sick.. but still, it's weird.. i dunno what to feel.. she wasn't my grandmother and we never had a so-called relationship and i knew she was about to die and now it happened and i don't know how to act or feel or anything..

weird, that's the word..

mcsigh..

gosh, i am so blank these last couple of days..

i hope that gets better.. i hope it's only a phase i'm going through after all that exam stress and now that it's all over and done i'll be ok once more.

i want to start getting up before eight o'clock in the morning. or at least before nine.. now that would be great.. otherwise i feel that i've wasted so much time while sleeping..

well, i'll try and be more active..

.. starting next week..

maybe:)

music: Umbrellas - Ships

yay! ?

ok, i got through round two.. and got 74 points.. which isn't much, but is enough for acceptance for english and american studies..

i rule!

and, um, why am i not happy?

is everything lost?

ok, i found this photo while going through old photos. well, old.. some four years back.. which is at my age a long time ago:)..

anyway, it was taken in italy.. somewhere around napoli.. and it's one of those pictures that i remember every detail about.

we were on our way back to the, um, hotel from vesuv which we didn't get to climb on because of snow. we took a break somewhere and some people went down on the beach to take a swim. i didn't want a swim, i think i was chatting with elis and we were watching the sunset. and because i was taking photos of everything on that trip, i took a pic of the setting sun too..

ok, no big deal, huh? well, we came back, and i showed my parents the photos, put them on a cd and that was about it..

and i foun it now, after four years and i actually think it's one of the best photos i have ever taken. i mean, anyone can opose that thought.. i just kind of liked it..

and all this brings me to another thought - we have so many photos on cd's and dvd's and hard disks and flash disks and whatever and we never look at them. i haven't gone through photos from italy for four years. and i have so many photos from slovakia which i haven't seen at all..

they're all lost somewhere in dad's computer or on all those disks and i might never see them again..

something has to be done..

as of now i pronounce next week the week of searching for long lost photos..

some of them might even be good..

music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue

think happy thoughts

um, i don't know if this thought i'm about to express fits here or belongs here, but as it's a part of me, it should be here..

you see, today i realized that i haven't been this happy in such a long time. well, a few years at least..

but now i am incandescently happy and it's wonderful..

ha haa!

love is so cool..

:)

music: Placebo - Every You, Every Me